Silly Sausage.

There aren't many things that excite Kurt October.
His a simple man with a good head on his shoulders.

He enjoys the finer things in life, he can lay on the couch for hours and do nothing.... or build sub boxes, fine tune his car sound system, eat, watch TV, play xbox and spend time with his blady fantastic fiancé.

However one of the few things that really excite him is... dum dum dum duuuum FOOD.

Kurt loves food.

He loves creating food and coming up with seemingly strange concoctions.

A few Examples:

Kurt's dad came home one weekend with a box full of springbok meat.
So Kurt decided he is going to create a masterpiece.
He melted dark chocolate and soaked the springbok chops in it, put it in the oven and made a sticky-chocolate- type chop.
Although it tasted like ... not fantastic, its the thought that counts isn't it :)

A few weeks after meeting me he made a BIG pot of PEANUT BUTTER pasta which to this day I can still remember as being freaking awesome.

He let me know earlier today that while I wash my hair and beautify myself, he will make us Cauliflower Pizzas.

Maybe next time I can add a pic of that creation too.

DAY, I have decided TO-DAY

Well, this is awkward.

I haven't written in ages and its mildly ridiculous, but also very understandable.

My diet, haha down the drain.
I have decided to stop putting so much pressure on losing weight and rather just take it day by day.
I cannot predict the future and I cannot always have everything right.

So, day-to-day is my new plan.

Today is my mom's birthday and I don't feel happy or impressed about it, I never know what to do on special occasions/ every second weekend when I have to go visit.
I always feel so uncomfortable and frustrated and then I end up cutting the visit short and running back to my comfort zone.

 I rate I am still carrying all the unnecessary drama in the back of my mind.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE...
I am Engaged:)

Have been since 4 October, nothing fancy.
Just personal and very US.

My ring is mighty stunning... I will post a pic.

Slow progress

I mentioned a while ago that i had started my eating plan and things were slow.
I have since only lost an additional 1.2kg but I know its my extreme chocolate addiction thats spoiling things.
LUCKILY I have only been losing and I have not picked up a gram yet.
The two things I have been most dedicated in consuming have been water and CHOCOLATE.

I am not even going to stress.
Winter has this effect on me, once summer arrives I always drop atleast 4kg.

I have been so cold its been making me so hungry for the most ridiculous things.
I have however taken up a new hobby in the meantime, collecting make up.

My friend has been teaching me bit bit, but I have been thoroughly enjoying buying colourful palettes and brushes.
Since this post is a bit more random than thought out and structured I thought Id add a funny picture to lighten it all up.

Eating what?

Three posts in one day, lets not get too excited.

I started back on the eating plan 29 July.

Three weeks of detox (no carbs, NONE, NILL, ZERO)

And the remaining weeks I get to add 10g carbs a week.

Its been strangely easier than I thought it would be, although the lack of carbs has made me an easy target for sickness (read below post).

I am both excited and DREADING Monday's weigh-in.

Excited because the moment I leave I can have an apple or something CARB-Y.

Dreading, well I have to weigh in after being on my own for 2 weeks...GREAT... I have a feeling this time the loss is hectically slow.

The first time I did this plan I lost 6kg in the first 3 weeks... and I have only lost 2.2kg in the first week this time... I was super disappointed. 

BUT this time, I really need to push through and do this, there is nothing better than feeling your clothes slowly becoming to big to fit the same.

AND because I love to buy clothes ALL THE TIME, this is the best excuse.

I haven't been able to exercise properly for 2 weeks without coughing and wheezing... so hopefully this bronchitis gets the message and buggers off soon.

I will try and keep things as updated as possible, and record my progress as I go.

God has a plan.. STOP controlling everything

 Two weeks ago I wrote a post about my bad week and my boss that still hasn't replied to my mail about my increase... BUT then something lovely happened.

I have been very disappointed about the fact that I work hard everyday and cover for different departments when need be, yet my manger has yet to reply to my mail about my salary.

I have vented to my boyfriend everyday and begged him for advice, I sound like a broken record.

Anyway.. on Wednesday I noticed that I had numerous missed calls from a strange number, and so I called back.

The lady on the other end said that she had been trying to reach me and that she had a lovely position available at a company. The salary is a lot more, with benefits and there is potential to earn commission.

She asked that I please come for an interview, which I did on Monday, and although I am on a waiting list. Its a new experience and my name is out there.

This whole situation just opened my eyes to the fact that God has a bigger, better, greater, way more wonderful plan than I can ever imagine.

There really is nothing that can stop his love for me, and although I do not always acknowledge it. He has a very vast plan and His Grace is everlasting.

I know I am undeserving of this grace, but I pray that everyday I can learn more and more about this marvelous love and passion He has for me.

 

I also need to learn to stop trying to control everything and TRUST GOD.

Head, Shoulders, Knees, Knees, Knees... Toes

I chose this title mainly because after feeling very proud of myself for working my ass off for 2 weeks, I have a knee injury.

When I was fresh out of school I bought an old, piece of junk scooter.
It carried my then skinny ass to and from work, through rain, storms, and firey hot days.

One day stands out though.
It was raining "cats and dogs", insanely heavy rain, horrible stormy weather and I was travelling by scooter down Blouberg road on my way home.

My scooter slid out from under me and I landed knee first on the tar, with my scooter on top on me.
I had to ride with my buckled wheel and painful legs all the way home, on Koeberg road.

Anyway, back to the point.

Since that lovely day, I have had a knee that cramps when its cold and gets red and hot when I walk to far.

So...because of my dedication to wearing something skimpy this summer, I have bruised the inside of the joint without bumping,knocking or touching my knee.
I have a massive blue mark and I can barely bend my leg.

I am to stay off my leg and resume exercise after a week, DOCTORS ORDERS.

I am not very excited about this arrangement, I am VERY scared my laziness kicks in again.

I guess its up to the 2 liters of water per day and high protein to burn my fat for me.

Passion



Since I was very little, I can remember having an incredible passion for music and singing.

I was the first to sign up for choir, and performed in many concerts between Grade1-3.

I was home schooled from Grade4 - 5, but I continued singing.
At church, at home... teaching my little sister.
I went to a private school until matric.

This school offered no extramural activities and this meant, the only way to practice was to join the church choir.

I was very involved in the church and love nothing more than singing.

Unfortunately, my father was a bit strict and I had to give up choir for my school work.

Needless to say my passion has still grow, but as one gets older, it becomes a bit more difficult to follow the dreams of a little girl.

My passion is still to be professional, maybe one day in God's plan it will come true.

Life

Life... it doesn't always work out the way you imagined it would.
I can remember dreaming up a life of Planet Shakers and being a full time youth leader, touring the world, studying accounting and singing my heart out as often as I could.
A lot of things determine your success in life; being passionate about what you do, having support, stability, and putting your life 100% in Gods hands.
Family, I would say your family makes a huge impact on who you become and where you go.
I thought my family was perfect, everyone fights so mine is no different, RIGHT?
It took only so long before things started to fall apart.
A marriage without God at the center never gets very far.
I was 20 when my mom decided to take my little sister and go live her life with her boyfriend.
Im not saying my dad had no part in the mess and pain caused for a woman to leave her child and hurry away.
Court appearances, phone calls, missed birthdays and a lot of pain filled the next year or so of my life.
Life doesn't go the way you want it to...
Besides all the gloomy bits, I can say with a heart full of love and joy...that my boyfriend is by far the best thing that has come along since high school.
Cliché? Naaah.
His wonderful and so so patient even on the worst days.
Although not many approved of our relationship at first, I am yet to meet a family member/ friend that doesn't love him now.
Its taken a year to forgive my mother and father for all the pain caused.
But id like to say that I am moving past it and trying to live a life of forgiveness and peace.
Life doesn't go the way you plan, or dream.