God has a plan.. STOP controlling everything

 Two weeks ago I wrote a post about my bad week and my boss that still hasn't replied to my mail about my increase... BUT then something lovely happened.

I have been very disappointed about the fact that I work hard everyday and cover for different departments when need be, yet my manger has yet to reply to my mail about my salary.

I have vented to my boyfriend everyday and begged him for advice, I sound like a broken record.

Anyway.. on Wednesday I noticed that I had numerous missed calls from a strange number, and so I called back.

The lady on the other end said that she had been trying to reach me and that she had a lovely position available at a company. The salary is a lot more, with benefits and there is potential to earn commission.

She asked that I please come for an interview, which I did on Monday, and although I am on a waiting list. Its a new experience and my name is out there.

This whole situation just opened my eyes to the fact that God has a bigger, better, greater, way more wonderful plan than I can ever imagine.

There really is nothing that can stop his love for me, and although I do not always acknowledge it. He has a very vast plan and His Grace is everlasting.

I know I am undeserving of this grace, but I pray that everyday I can learn more and more about this marvelous love and passion He has for me.

 

I also need to learn to stop trying to control everything and TRUST GOD.

The day before friday

This has by far been the worst week ever... honestly.
To much trouble at work, lots of issues at home, fights, hassles, a sore stomach, a bug, and this morning I work up with blood all over my face from a very bad nose bleed.
I am supposed to be getting a raise this week and my boss is avoiding me at all costs.
I realised I have gained about 2kg since stopping my excercise for a little while.
And I have had enough.
Tomorrow is friday, and I am praying my week will end on a good note and not a crappy one.

Head, Shoulders, Knees, Knees, Knees... Toes

I chose this title mainly because after feeling very proud of myself for working my ass off for 2 weeks, I have a knee injury.

When I was fresh out of school I bought an old, piece of junk scooter.
It carried my then skinny ass to and from work, through rain, storms, and firey hot days.

One day stands out though.
It was raining "cats and dogs", insanely heavy rain, horrible stormy weather and I was travelling by scooter down Blouberg road on my way home.

My scooter slid out from under me and I landed knee first on the tar, with my scooter on top on me.
I had to ride with my buckled wheel and painful legs all the way home, on Koeberg road.

Anyway, back to the point.

Since that lovely day, I have had a knee that cramps when its cold and gets red and hot when I walk to far.

So...because of my dedication to wearing something skimpy this summer, I have bruised the inside of the joint without bumping,knocking or touching my knee.
I have a massive blue mark and I can barely bend my leg.

I am to stay off my leg and resume exercise after a week, DOCTORS ORDERS.

I am not very excited about this arrangement, I am VERY scared my laziness kicks in again.

I guess its up to the 2 liters of water per day and high protein to burn my fat for me.

1. 2. 3. GO



Today marks 2 weeks since my Boyfriend and I started our OFFICIAL eating clean/ excercising 6/7 days a week.

I must honestly say, its not that easy to get into a pattern of excercise and sore muscles, but its fantastic.

I have Zumba'd everyday for the past 2 weeks, so I can say I am a pro at shaking my hips by now.

When my dad was in the process of loosing 50kg, he bought a huge weight-lifting machine that works so well for arm excercises.

I am telling you, doing the job I do with sore arms... not so nice, but I am not stopping now.

Hopefully, I can continue the pattern I have developed and this time next year I am looking even better than before.

Life

Life... it doesn't always work out the way you imagined it would.
I can remember dreaming up a life of Planet Shakers and being a full time youth leader, touring the world, studying accounting and singing my heart out as often as I could.
A lot of things determine your success in life; being passionate about what you do, having support, stability, and putting your life 100% in Gods hands.
Family, I would say your family makes a huge impact on who you become and where you go.
I thought my family was perfect, everyone fights so mine is no different, RIGHT?
It took only so long before things started to fall apart.
A marriage without God at the center never gets very far.
I was 20 when my mom decided to take my little sister and go live her life with her boyfriend.
Im not saying my dad had no part in the mess and pain caused for a woman to leave her child and hurry away.
Court appearances, phone calls, missed birthdays and a lot of pain filled the next year or so of my life.
Life doesn't go the way you want it to...
Besides all the gloomy bits, I can say with a heart full of love and joy...that my boyfriend is by far the best thing that has come along since high school.
Cliché? Naaah.
His wonderful and so so patient even on the worst days.
Although not many approved of our relationship at first, I am yet to meet a family member/ friend that doesn't love him now.
Its taken a year to forgive my mother and father for all the pain caused.
But id like to say that I am moving past it and trying to live a life of forgiveness and peace.
Life doesn't go the way you plan, or dream.