Post for a pretty girl

A family member of mine has been going through a tough time.
She has lost a lot of weight, YIPEE

BUT, she has also been tackling her alcohol addiction and attending AA meetings, getting her life on track and just fixing all the broken little pieces.

These are some pictures for her for motivation.

DAY, I have decided TO-DAY

Well, this is awkward.

I haven't written in ages and its mildly ridiculous, but also very understandable.

My diet, haha down the drain.
I have decided to stop putting so much pressure on losing weight and rather just take it day by day.
I cannot predict the future and I cannot always have everything right.

So, day-to-day is my new plan.

Today is my mom's birthday and I don't feel happy or impressed about it, I never know what to do on special occasions/ every second weekend when I have to go visit.
I always feel so uncomfortable and frustrated and then I end up cutting the visit short and running back to my comfort zone.

 I rate I am still carrying all the unnecessary drama in the back of my mind.

ON THE BRIGHT SIDE...
I am Engaged:)

Have been since 4 October, nothing fancy.
Just personal and very US.

My ring is mighty stunning... I will post a pic.

Slow progress

I mentioned a while ago that i had started my eating plan and things were slow.
I have since only lost an additional 1.2kg but I know its my extreme chocolate addiction thats spoiling things.
LUCKILY I have only been losing and I have not picked up a gram yet.
The two things I have been most dedicated in consuming have been water and CHOCOLATE.

I am not even going to stress.
Winter has this effect on me, once summer arrives I always drop atleast 4kg.

I have been so cold its been making me so hungry for the most ridiculous things.
I have however taken up a new hobby in the meantime, collecting make up.

My friend has been teaching me bit bit, but I have been thoroughly enjoying buying colourful palettes and brushes.
Since this post is a bit more random than thought out and structured I thought Id add a funny picture to lighten it all up.

Funny Pic for the day

 

Had me giggling for a while... hehe

fri.END.ship

Friendship, a relationship of mutual affection between two or more people. Friendship is a stronger form of interpersonal bond than an association.

Loyalty, faithfulness or a devotion to a person, country, group, or cause.

Influence, the capacity or power of persons or things to be a compelling force on or produce effects on the actions, behavior, opinions, etc., of others.

The past year has opened my eyes to a lot regarding friendship, loyalty and overall influence.

I would like to think I am a good friend, we all have faults and little things we lack, but I have always tried to do my best.

I went through a heavy friendship “break-up” last year; it was painful and affected me for a long time. She was extremely special to me and we were friends for a very long time. We shared a lot of special stories, some private and others were how we would embarrass ourselves without even trying.

If I think about my teenage years and even as I became an adult, she was always there and her family carried me through difficult times and struggles. I spent every weekend and holiday with her, and we grew to be part of one another…we learnt each other so well that I could look at her and she would know what I was saying without words.

Her mother, a very strong, opinionated lady who wore perfume that stuck to you for days… she taught me how to cook a few things, how to use a knife and fork, and she bought me things whenever I was in need. She became like a mom to me, someone I could trust.

It’s unfortunate that things change, people change and sometimes… you just grow apart.

Although I loved her very much, she was very different to me. We lived VERY different lives, had very different jobs and responsibilities.

If I were to go back a year or two back, I don’t think I would do things differently; I do think I would be more honest though and voice my opinion in the times when I was too scared to speak.

Life does go on; I have had to learn that the hard way.

Friendships/ friends have the power to influence and change your behavior, even if you don’t want them to. “You are who you hang out with”- you become like the people you associate with.

My dad has a saying: “Like likes like.”

You are more likely to do something crazy, different and wild with a friend than by yourself… As a girl, there is no one’s opinion you want more than your best friends, from clothes to guys and the occasional rant.

I know I would have told my friend a lot more than I would have told my mother.

I don’t think a friendship is about excessive amounts of PDA, or who can out do who. Sometimes all you need is an ear to listen and a hand to hold.

Not everyone is made, designed for long term friendship. It’s not easy to be faithful and loyal to someone even when they aren’t to you.

I find it very hard to trust without question, it’s one of the traits my boyfriend really doesn’t like… I ask too many questions.

I have taken the last year to get over all my friendship issues and focus on ME… I haven’t made time to make new friends and I have become very attached to my boyfriend.

Only recently have I decided to ‘stick my neck out’ and try and be open to something new. I have only made one new friend, but that’s fine. I have never been one for a huge group of friends.

There is still a lot of time for friends and relationships; someday I will feel content with where I am.

For now, I will just continue to work at being open to new possibilities.

Eating what?

Three posts in one day, lets not get too excited.

I started back on the eating plan 29 July.

Three weeks of detox (no carbs, NONE, NILL, ZERO)

And the remaining weeks I get to add 10g carbs a week.

Its been strangely easier than I thought it would be, although the lack of carbs has made me an easy target for sickness (read below post).

I am both excited and DREADING Monday's weigh-in.

Excited because the moment I leave I can have an apple or something CARB-Y.

Dreading, well I have to weigh in after being on my own for 2 weeks...GREAT... I have a feeling this time the loss is hectically slow.

The first time I did this plan I lost 6kg in the first 3 weeks... and I have only lost 2.2kg in the first week this time... I was super disappointed. 

BUT this time, I really need to push through and do this, there is nothing better than feeling your clothes slowly becoming to big to fit the same.

AND because I love to buy clothes ALL THE TIME, this is the best excuse.

I haven't been able to exercise properly for 2 weeks without coughing and wheezing... so hopefully this bronchitis gets the message and buggers off soon.

I will try and keep things as updated as possible, and record my progress as I go.

August, My friend

So, Its been quite a while since I last post anything read-able.

It's been a busy, rushed and tiring month for me... today is my first day back from sick leave.

I was booked off for 3 days with Bronchitis, Sinusitis and Flu... FUN!!!!

Being who I am, I obviously didn't sleep much, I must have got 5 hours sleep a night AND then I kept myself so busy during the day that I didn't even think about taking a nap.

OH WELL..at least it is Friday!

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God has a plan.. STOP controlling everything

 Two weeks ago I wrote a post about my bad week and my boss that still hasn't replied to my mail about my increase... BUT then something lovely happened.

I have been very disappointed about the fact that I work hard everyday and cover for different departments when need be, yet my manger has yet to reply to my mail about my salary.

I have vented to my boyfriend everyday and begged him for advice, I sound like a broken record.

Anyway.. on Wednesday I noticed that I had numerous missed calls from a strange number, and so I called back.

The lady on the other end said that she had been trying to reach me and that she had a lovely position available at a company. The salary is a lot more, with benefits and there is potential to earn commission.

She asked that I please come for an interview, which I did on Monday, and although I am on a waiting list. Its a new experience and my name is out there.

This whole situation just opened my eyes to the fact that God has a bigger, better, greater, way more wonderful plan than I can ever imagine.

There really is nothing that can stop his love for me, and although I do not always acknowledge it. He has a very vast plan and His Grace is everlasting.

I know I am undeserving of this grace, but I pray that everyday I can learn more and more about this marvelous love and passion He has for me.

 

I also need to learn to stop trying to control everything and TRUST GOD.

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I am an absolute Tumbr addict and I love finding pictures.

A picture tells a story more detailed than most books can explain.

Therefore, I have decided to constantly share some of my favourites that I collect through out each week or so.